She ended up staying a little longer than planned, saying goodbye several times before inevitably settling back in again. Good conversation has that effect on people. We talked about movie musicals and politics and religion... but mostly musicals. We're agreed that Russell Crowe disappointed in Les Mis, we're excited for Anna Kendrick to be in The Last Five Years and on some level we all miss the theater. I don't miss it as much as those two do, but I do sometimes miss it.
It's funny how as a child and teenager I was once able to sing and act onstage in front of people. Nowadays, I get panic attacks from being called on to answer a question in class. I shake like a leaf when giving a class presentation. And I was sweating bullets as soon as Sydney set up her tripod and focused that camera on us. Thursday I'll have to give a presentation in front of an estimated 80 or so people including the president of Utah Valley University and I am terrified. Terrified. I wonder whatever happened to the confident boy who used to perform. I wonder if he's gone for good, or if he'll ever come back again.