With all the wedding planning, we've been getting a lot of questions about our marriage. Due to the sensitive nature of most of them, I've referred to those asking as "anonymous."
From Anonymous: Why are you getting married if it's not even legal in Utah?
Ever since I was a kid I was taught that when two people loved each other they got married. Sure, the "two people" were probably explained to me as "a man and a woman," but that didn't stop me from making the blonde Ken doll and the brunette Ken doll ditch Barbie and go marry each other. So when I grew up years later and realized I was gay, that notion of marrying the one I love didn't go away. And when Brian asked me to marry him some three years ago, I said "yes." It just seemed to be the natural progression of things. You meet, you fall in love, you get married.
And although same-sex marriage is legal in the state of New York, where Brian and I are tying the knot, I am well aware that our marriage license won't mean anything in the state of Utah. So why bother? Well, because it means something to us. It means a lifelong commitment. It means the start of a family. It means all of the things that marriage means to straight couples. Nobody goes into marriage saying, "I'm only doing this for tax purposes and hospital visitation rights." No, they do it for love. And while those are the sorts of benefits that will go unrecognized here in Utah, Brian and I will still know in our hearts that we are married.
Besides, we don't plan on living in Utah forever and we will most likely find ourselves in one of the six states that does recognize same-sex marriage someday. And as the fight for marriage equality continues, I am optimistic that more and more states will embrace it in the future. The world is changing. France is on the brink of legalizing same-sex marriage within the next few weeks and not long ago Mexico did the same, joining Canada and ten other countries.
From Anonymous: Is your marriage some kind of political statement?
Considering it's an election season and Brian's Facebook statuses are hyper-political as of late, I can see where one might get that idea. However, this is nothing of the sort. As I stated in the answer above, Brian and I are getting married because we love each other and that's what people in love do! Far from trying to stir up controversy, I would say our desire to be married is probably the most conservative and traditional thing about us.
From Anonymous: I love you guys, but my religious views are in opposition to same-sex marriage. How do I reconcile this?
I'm going to answer this question with a bit of a story. There's a member of Brian's extended family that expressed a similar sentiment. She said she loved us and enjoyed our visits to her home, but at the same time worried that by attending our wedding reception she was condoning same-sex marriage which she finds contrary to her religious beliefs. She took her concerns to the Lord in prayer, and came to the conclusion that Jesus would have gone if he were in her shoes. We were happy to hear she was able to find a way to reconcile her desire to be supportive with her belief system.
But as much as I would love everyone to take that route, I understand that not everyone will come to the same conclusion. It's heartbreaking that such a joyous and happy day in my life can bring about negativity... but it has to some degree. Feeling a little down, my sister sent a text message reassuring me that no matter who may or may not be in attendance, "God sure will be."